Matrix!!

What am I doing?? some time I ask myself. Recentpast I know I am doing silly things, acting weired, sometime act like a mad man, which is out of my control. My mind keep sending me warning message about this, but I couldn't control. Everyday I decide not to feel into it, but seriously I couldn't!! I couldn't. I am trying to divert my concentration on others, but people around me and envoirment pushes me back. Every day night I recall the mistakes I did and finding the solution. My sleep has gone, My happiness has gone, My dreams are shattered. But still I am trying to keep myself up and and I never lose my confidence. But trying to stay away from people, which is very much not possible. One question raises my mind everytime, Who design this Matrix?? If you hear me I pledge you to Please! Please! debug the code written for me.